Hanging in there

Well, the first two days of the group therapy have gone well. The most productive for me was Psychodrama--a group where they focus on one person for an hour and a half. I volunteered, and I was chosen. Let's just say it was one of the most intense therapy sessions, and I have had more than a couple. The job thing finally worked out so I will be able to go for the first three days of next week.

Today I still lounged around a bit more than they would like a depressed person to do, but less than the previous weekends. I made myself get out of the house to take Spencer to the dog park, and I actually spoke to a couple of people who seem to go there regularly. With Sweetheart working on Saturdays, I may make a habit of the dog park just to get out of the habit of lazing around. Plus it is good for Spencer to see how many trees he can pee on in the space of an hour.

Tomorrow includes some football watching and some house cleaning. So, what is everyone else up to? Who are you cheering for in tomorrow's games?

Not really fair to ask...

Since I haven't blogged in ages.....

However, I could use some good vibes, thoughts or prayers, whichever part you lean towards. My depression has been kicking me in the ass lately, and anxiety has reared its ugly head again. I am learning that I don't really have what I need to get a handle on this, no matter how heard I try. I missed work yesterday and today with panic attacks that just wouldn't stop. This is not something that I like, or can afford.

I called my therapist and she suggested an intensive outpatient program for me. I'm scared, nervous, and a little bit hopeful. I don't know how we can afford it, but I also don't know if we can afford not to do it. I have an intake appt at 3PM, so we will see what happens next.

I'll let you know. Also, I'll try to blog a bit more. I think I've been taking a bit too literally when Mother used to say, "If you don't have anything good to say, don't say anything at all." I may bore you to tears with my depression, but it will probably be good for me.